Post by Lhin Demizu on Apr 10, 2014 16:26:48 GMT -6
{Another story featuring my monk from World of Warcraft. Hope you all enjoy.}
Monori stood on the docks of Lakeshire the gentle spring breeze blwing through her blue hair and fur covered leathers. So many things had changed for her in the year since Dizzy’s death, yet to her many things remained the same. The last trip to Pandaria she had taken to show her respect to Dizzy left her covered in the blood of hozen and a few pandaren looking at the Highbourne with cautious concern. She had spent a good portion of the last few days sitting and allowing the fellow Highbourne Liladrelia delve through her mind to try and assist her in getting over this, but the calming effect these gave where always temporary and she always returned to the morose and dark place she dwelled within.
“Why can I not get over her… Why is it that I cannot let her rest in peace. I loved and lost her to those apes… Why… Why is it that I cannot.”
Monori spoke softly to herself as she knelt and then sat down at the edge of the dock her long toned legs hanging over the side. Tears stung her eyes as she reached up and clutched the cold golden rings that hung about her neck. The cool metal felt hot in her hands as the tears stayed on her face as she looked into the cloudless sky. A soft creaking of wood made known the presence of another person, but Monori did not move as she knew who it was. Another elven figure approached and sat down beside her a calming yet calloused hand resting on top of Monori’s hands. The older elf with her eyes still covered sat there and spoke up as she set down a glass beside Monori.
“It’s the anniversary isn’t it Mono… I wish there was more that mother could do for you to ease your pain, but… I have not been the greatest of mothers to you. Losing you when I did and then when I found you we spent just enough time to get reacquainted and then I went right back to doing what I had been without a care in the world… I know I should have been there to comfort you that day, but I wasn’t. I let you go to Tsundre and find your solace.”
The older elf squeezed Monori’s hands lightly as she gave a reassuring smile toward her. It was the first of many steps that the older Highbourne had done to reconnect with her long estranged daughter. Monori was grateful for her mothers words and the encouraging touch and feeling she got from her. Sitting up slowly she took the steaming cup and took a drink of morning tea her mother brewed for herself. A smile crept on her face as she recognized the taste almost instantly as a plant native to Pandaria that she enjoyed and had given as a gift before Aura her sister was born.
“You made up the tea I had given you. You did not have to Gali.”
Galinessa just smiled at her daughter and waved her off as she sipped from her own steaming cup. The tea being slightly bitter compared to the usual cup she enjoyed each morning with Augustine while Aura slept. She turned her cloth covered head toward the water and then back to her daughter shortly after as she heard Monori huff.
“Something the matter Monori? I mean other than the obvious pain that still dwells in your heart?”
Monori shrugged as she closed her blue eyes. It was still obvious that the pain was the main source of all her discomfort with everyone except for Kargosa, Tsundre, and Lia. The constant distractions and constant fighting within herself to not break down all the time echoed loudly.
“Mother its… It is the fact that despite the loss of Dizzy I… I should be happy. As I am with Lady Kargosa. She makes me feel as If I am the only person in the entirety of Azeroth that matters to hjer despite her own obligations to the flight. I understand what she has to do…”
“But you do not know how long that you can go unrequited and without the comfort of her arms about you. She has been a constant presence in your life since before Dizzy passed away and she stayed there throughout all your stages of grief. I remember reading something that Augustine gave me before my eyes went the way they have that the final stage is the most difficult and takes the longest. Acceptance of the death. You are in that Monori as you have gone through all the stages til now. Now I see my girl hurt and wanting to find the reason behind the senseless act that was at its core mindless. You have come to some sort of realization of that and now you are trying to accept it… Yet you feel that if you do accept it she will be lost to you as everything she stood for would be gone as well. “
Galinessa spoke quietly yet confidently as she turned her leather armored self and looked at Monori. Her own motherly instincts taking over and internally she was surprised with herself for having the instincts finally emerge after all this time. Her hand moving and resting on Monori’s shoulder patting it lightly as she continued speaking.
“Monori. Nothing will ever take away the memories the two of you shared. Nothing can take away the love you shared so long as you allow her memory to live through you and through your actions. Which right now my dear daughter are… frantic and disorganized. You have allowed this despair you feel to cloud your mind and hold you stationary. Break free of this cloud and become who you are meant to be… It is just as when I was lost from Mistress Riven’s service. I drifted and wandered for so long never finding my way until I was nearly killed because of my stupidity. From then on I vowed to live for the both of us not knowing she was still alive. So I used my skills to show my actions. You need to do the same. Learn from what Dizzy showed you in your short time together. It is the only way you can grow and she can rest. Go and pay your respects Mono. Go and spent some time at their grave.”
Gali nessa spoke as she stood and she took the cups away as Monori had drank hers while Galinessa talked. Heading back off the docks she spoke one last time.
“Go alone. It may be hard but it’s the only way you will grow as a person. I love you Monori. Now go and spread those wings that Dizzy loved.”
With a smile on her face Galinessa vanished as quickly as she appeared the only noise was the wind blowing past Monori now. Her face had a slight smile upon it as she closed her eyes and then opened them. Raising her hands as she began to make the motions of a teleporting spell that Kargosa had taught her she spoke softly, but she was certain her mother could hear her.
“Thanks mom. I needed that a lot. Your good at this.”
Vanishing a few seconds later into a simple blue flash of light. Reappearing inside of the rebuilt home of hers her smile shook as she glanced around. Slowly walking upstairs she moved to the third floor and the small dedicated shrine to Dizzy. The smile widened as she knelt down before it as she reached for the picture of Dizzy. Running her hand on it she set it down lightly as she grabbed the bottle of the only drink the pair had ever shared and Dizzy showed just how great of a fighter she was while drunk. Taking a shot of it she drank it before carrying the bottle out of the room and to the memorial for Dizzy.
Approaching the grave she poured a second glass and set it on top of the grave. Moving she sat down beside it as she raised her glass to take another drink. As she finished off the second glass she felt the wind come and wrap around her swirling gently all about her as if arms where coming to wrap themselves about her. Her eyes closed as the scents of their old home came to her and she smiled speaking to herself.
“Heya Dizzy. Sorry that I had to go running off like that. I.. I have been alright. Been busy with learning how to use this magic I have within me. Yes I do still Mistress Kargosa… Though now she is more than just my mistress. I know I know… Me being the woman of the relationship is rather funny. Even I have to admit that things have been different in this year since you left me.”
The winds blew a little harder as she felt them swirl about her as if comforting her as Monori felt a tear roll on her cheek.
“I miss you. More than I even cared to admit. Sitting here with you and our child beside me… It makes me feel whole again. What.. Oh I am crying. Yea it seems that I am. It is still so hard to acknowledge that you will not be coming in that door and hugging me after working the fields all day. I miss that… I miss a lot of things.”
Her words fell silent as the wind died down and stopped swirling about her. The smile still there albeit with a few streaks of tears on her face covering herself with a slightly different aura than normal. Smiling as she stood she took the second full glass and set it before the small memorial headstone for Dizzy. Taking her hand she cleaned it with her fingertips before pulling back and grabbing the glass and pouring it out onto the headstone and grass before the stone.
“Next year Dizzy. I will tell you all about my adventures this year. Trust me I will celebrate enough for the both of us. I will live enough for the both of us.”
Corking the bottle she turned to head inside their home as the winds came back spinning itself around her in one final embrace as she stopped by the door to enjoy the feeling. Her hand holding onto the bottle barely as she trembled lightly as the wind passed her and she swore she heard Dizzy speaking her name once again.
“I love you to Dizzy… Same time next year alright. I will bring the alcohol for you to enjoy.”
Monori stood on the docks of Lakeshire the gentle spring breeze blwing through her blue hair and fur covered leathers. So many things had changed for her in the year since Dizzy’s death, yet to her many things remained the same. The last trip to Pandaria she had taken to show her respect to Dizzy left her covered in the blood of hozen and a few pandaren looking at the Highbourne with cautious concern. She had spent a good portion of the last few days sitting and allowing the fellow Highbourne Liladrelia delve through her mind to try and assist her in getting over this, but the calming effect these gave where always temporary and she always returned to the morose and dark place she dwelled within.
“Why can I not get over her… Why is it that I cannot let her rest in peace. I loved and lost her to those apes… Why… Why is it that I cannot.”
Monori spoke softly to herself as she knelt and then sat down at the edge of the dock her long toned legs hanging over the side. Tears stung her eyes as she reached up and clutched the cold golden rings that hung about her neck. The cool metal felt hot in her hands as the tears stayed on her face as she looked into the cloudless sky. A soft creaking of wood made known the presence of another person, but Monori did not move as she knew who it was. Another elven figure approached and sat down beside her a calming yet calloused hand resting on top of Monori’s hands. The older elf with her eyes still covered sat there and spoke up as she set down a glass beside Monori.
“It’s the anniversary isn’t it Mono… I wish there was more that mother could do for you to ease your pain, but… I have not been the greatest of mothers to you. Losing you when I did and then when I found you we spent just enough time to get reacquainted and then I went right back to doing what I had been without a care in the world… I know I should have been there to comfort you that day, but I wasn’t. I let you go to Tsundre and find your solace.”
The older elf squeezed Monori’s hands lightly as she gave a reassuring smile toward her. It was the first of many steps that the older Highbourne had done to reconnect with her long estranged daughter. Monori was grateful for her mothers words and the encouraging touch and feeling she got from her. Sitting up slowly she took the steaming cup and took a drink of morning tea her mother brewed for herself. A smile crept on her face as she recognized the taste almost instantly as a plant native to Pandaria that she enjoyed and had given as a gift before Aura her sister was born.
“You made up the tea I had given you. You did not have to Gali.”
Galinessa just smiled at her daughter and waved her off as she sipped from her own steaming cup. The tea being slightly bitter compared to the usual cup she enjoyed each morning with Augustine while Aura slept. She turned her cloth covered head toward the water and then back to her daughter shortly after as she heard Monori huff.
“Something the matter Monori? I mean other than the obvious pain that still dwells in your heart?”
Monori shrugged as she closed her blue eyes. It was still obvious that the pain was the main source of all her discomfort with everyone except for Kargosa, Tsundre, and Lia. The constant distractions and constant fighting within herself to not break down all the time echoed loudly.
“Mother its… It is the fact that despite the loss of Dizzy I… I should be happy. As I am with Lady Kargosa. She makes me feel as If I am the only person in the entirety of Azeroth that matters to hjer despite her own obligations to the flight. I understand what she has to do…”
“But you do not know how long that you can go unrequited and without the comfort of her arms about you. She has been a constant presence in your life since before Dizzy passed away and she stayed there throughout all your stages of grief. I remember reading something that Augustine gave me before my eyes went the way they have that the final stage is the most difficult and takes the longest. Acceptance of the death. You are in that Monori as you have gone through all the stages til now. Now I see my girl hurt and wanting to find the reason behind the senseless act that was at its core mindless. You have come to some sort of realization of that and now you are trying to accept it… Yet you feel that if you do accept it she will be lost to you as everything she stood for would be gone as well. “
Galinessa spoke quietly yet confidently as she turned her leather armored self and looked at Monori. Her own motherly instincts taking over and internally she was surprised with herself for having the instincts finally emerge after all this time. Her hand moving and resting on Monori’s shoulder patting it lightly as she continued speaking.
“Monori. Nothing will ever take away the memories the two of you shared. Nothing can take away the love you shared so long as you allow her memory to live through you and through your actions. Which right now my dear daughter are… frantic and disorganized. You have allowed this despair you feel to cloud your mind and hold you stationary. Break free of this cloud and become who you are meant to be… It is just as when I was lost from Mistress Riven’s service. I drifted and wandered for so long never finding my way until I was nearly killed because of my stupidity. From then on I vowed to live for the both of us not knowing she was still alive. So I used my skills to show my actions. You need to do the same. Learn from what Dizzy showed you in your short time together. It is the only way you can grow and she can rest. Go and pay your respects Mono. Go and spent some time at their grave.”
Gali nessa spoke as she stood and she took the cups away as Monori had drank hers while Galinessa talked. Heading back off the docks she spoke one last time.
“Go alone. It may be hard but it’s the only way you will grow as a person. I love you Monori. Now go and spread those wings that Dizzy loved.”
With a smile on her face Galinessa vanished as quickly as she appeared the only noise was the wind blowing past Monori now. Her face had a slight smile upon it as she closed her eyes and then opened them. Raising her hands as she began to make the motions of a teleporting spell that Kargosa had taught her she spoke softly, but she was certain her mother could hear her.
“Thanks mom. I needed that a lot. Your good at this.”
Vanishing a few seconds later into a simple blue flash of light. Reappearing inside of the rebuilt home of hers her smile shook as she glanced around. Slowly walking upstairs she moved to the third floor and the small dedicated shrine to Dizzy. The smile widened as she knelt down before it as she reached for the picture of Dizzy. Running her hand on it she set it down lightly as she grabbed the bottle of the only drink the pair had ever shared and Dizzy showed just how great of a fighter she was while drunk. Taking a shot of it she drank it before carrying the bottle out of the room and to the memorial for Dizzy.
Approaching the grave she poured a second glass and set it on top of the grave. Moving she sat down beside it as she raised her glass to take another drink. As she finished off the second glass she felt the wind come and wrap around her swirling gently all about her as if arms where coming to wrap themselves about her. Her eyes closed as the scents of their old home came to her and she smiled speaking to herself.
“Heya Dizzy. Sorry that I had to go running off like that. I.. I have been alright. Been busy with learning how to use this magic I have within me. Yes I do still Mistress Kargosa… Though now she is more than just my mistress. I know I know… Me being the woman of the relationship is rather funny. Even I have to admit that things have been different in this year since you left me.”
The winds blew a little harder as she felt them swirl about her as if comforting her as Monori felt a tear roll on her cheek.
“I miss you. More than I even cared to admit. Sitting here with you and our child beside me… It makes me feel whole again. What.. Oh I am crying. Yea it seems that I am. It is still so hard to acknowledge that you will not be coming in that door and hugging me after working the fields all day. I miss that… I miss a lot of things.”
Her words fell silent as the wind died down and stopped swirling about her. The smile still there albeit with a few streaks of tears on her face covering herself with a slightly different aura than normal. Smiling as she stood she took the second full glass and set it before the small memorial headstone for Dizzy. Taking her hand she cleaned it with her fingertips before pulling back and grabbing the glass and pouring it out onto the headstone and grass before the stone.
“Next year Dizzy. I will tell you all about my adventures this year. Trust me I will celebrate enough for the both of us. I will live enough for the both of us.”
Corking the bottle she turned to head inside their home as the winds came back spinning itself around her in one final embrace as she stopped by the door to enjoy the feeling. Her hand holding onto the bottle barely as she trembled lightly as the wind passed her and she swore she heard Dizzy speaking her name once again.
“I love you to Dizzy… Same time next year alright. I will bring the alcohol for you to enjoy.”